my depression.

me.

Ok so this is me. i didnt really know what to write but i decided to just write about everything that comes into my head while i am writing this. my life isnt perfect, but whos is? i mean i dont have the fanciest clothes or the most makeup, but im happy-ish. i have some amazing friends, some talk about me behind my back, but i dont mind that because there just saying their own opinons, of cousr it hurts when i find out they do but then again i can guaranty that i, and a million other girls do the same. i went through a really tough time 2011 christmas and the beggining of 2012. my bestfriends in the whole wide world heard that i called them bitches (i didnt), so instead of talking to me and discussing it, they decided to send me discustingly horrible messages on facebook for days. nobody knew but me but eventually i got so depressed my mum started investigating what had happened. she took me of facebook which i could understand, but what i hated the most was that i didnt know what everyone was saying about me behind my back. i was going to have to walk into school and face them, not knowing what they were thinking. it wasnt good. instead of leaving me alone they decided to bully me. thats when i got fully depressed. i had no friends exept my bestest friend ellie, only problem was that she didnt go to the same school as me. eventually it got to the point where i would cry in the loo's, hide away anywhere i could, never go into the playground. my teacher found out and sorted things out, they didnt exactly say anything to my face but when i saw them i ALWAYS knew they were talking about me and glaring at me. things got better somehow, im not sure how because my brain decided to blank out as many memories as possible about them. luckily for me i was going into highschool soon anyway so i would make new friends there, i did and they are AMAZING friends. im happy again now but the depression is still there, at the back of my mind, i can slowley feel it coming back. my mum doesnt help though, she grounds me for everything, my mum read my messages about being drunk, when i didnt even get drunk!! she never listens to me and i swear that she thinks 24/7 of ways to get me in trouble!! ughh the other day she grounded me for just going out wiv my friend after skl! she thought i was meeting people! i mean come on! seriously she wont let me have a life! she even moans about my dad liking me!anyway, ill fill you in later byee xxxx

bye guys! xxx